Showing posts with label me. Show all posts
Showing posts with label me. Show all posts
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Exploring identity on social network: Flickr
Flickr is the biggest Web 2.0 social service that enables you to share photography and interact with others. One of the interesting groups on Flickr is 365 days project where one explore self in everyday context (365 days) during a year by publishing a photo (of self) per day. This is great way not only to share and interact the aspects of yourself with others, but also denotes intimate dialogues with (your)self. Outcome is fun, amazing pro photographers you meet, ride per se, and maybe a book.
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Virtual Identity
`I am my body to the extent that I am,' - J.P.Sartre, Being and Nothingness
Comparing to physical, virtual world is different, made of information, bits and bytes. Although in everyday life virtual denotes quasi, pseudo or fake, in different contexts this term we perceive in different ways.
For example, in philosophical context, virtual is 'unreal' entity, though can imply the qualities of real. Many sociologists, anthropologists, and philosophers use term virtual for the facet of reality that is not material, but despite everything is real (Deluze).
One of many aspects points out on virtual as surface, facade, mask, created by realistically caused interactions happening on material level. When you are using computer, the image projected on the screen depends on physical interactions happening on hardware level. Here, virtual is possibility that stays fulfilled in concrete, actual. It's not yet material, but it is real. Michel Foucault advocated the idea that identity isn't stable component of the humanity, but something that is constantly changing.
On ontology level, actual, potential, virtual - denotes something that isn't [ physical ] realistic but owns all qualities of real.
Prototype primer is (self) reflection in the mirror.
Sunday, September 14, 2008
5 meme questions on virtual ID/Entity
I don't like memes too much, but since the subject is digital ID/Entity in this project and blog, I will give short replies.
1 Is virtual identity virtual at all?
It is just digital passport for accessing the other medium we have tried to reach since Aristotle, in the form of persistent interactions.
2 5 aspects of your identity that you try to project onto the world?
- i try to be inspirative/primer/ to others
- i try to learn something new each day and give good examples about it to the world
- i try to interact respectfully and listen to the other
- i try to implement personal creativities
- i try not to try anything above, i am just doing it.
3 How do people see you?
Actually here I have interviewed people (allies, colleagues, friends) with who I interact on daily basis and the most overlapping characteristics/perceptions I got as response are the following:
-intelligent
-unique/different
-beautiful
-thoughtful
-good writer (have good ideas)
-very true person ( don't give off a false image)
- analytical,
- insightful,
- scholarly,
- an attractive woman and aware of that.
4 Difference between your real self and the virtual self?
There is no difference. Everything is in your perception.
5 What female celebrity you would like to be (up to three.... living or dead, real or fictional, it doesn't matter)?
None.
If not asked for celebrity - that would be me. Cannot imagine myself or 'would-like-to be' as anyone else.
6 What male celebrity you would like to be (up to three.... living or dead, real or fictional, it doesn't matter)?
None. Same as for female.
I would like to spend some time interacting and brainstorming with some [for me] "celebrities" in my field of interest but I couldn't find anyone real or fictional that I would like to be, rather than me. I am (sub) real.
1 Is virtual identity virtual at all?
It is just digital passport for accessing the other medium we have tried to reach since Aristotle, in the form of persistent interactions.
2 5 aspects of your identity that you try to project onto the world?
- i try to be inspirative/primer/ to others
- i try to learn something new each day and give good examples about it to the world
- i try to interact respectfully and listen to the other
- i try to implement personal creativities
- i try not to try anything above, i am just doing it.
3 How do people see you?
Actually here I have interviewed people (allies, colleagues, friends) with who I interact on daily basis and the most overlapping characteristics/perceptions I got as response are the following:
-intelligent
-unique/different
-beautiful
-thoughtful
-good writer (have good ideas)
-very true person ( don't give off a false image)
- analytical,
- insightful,
- scholarly,
- an attractive woman and aware of that.
4 Difference between your real self and the virtual self?
There is no difference. Everything is in your perception.
5 What female celebrity you would like to be (up to three.... living or dead, real or fictional, it doesn't matter)?
None.
If not asked for celebrity - that would be me. Cannot imagine myself or 'would-like-to be' as anyone else.
6 What male celebrity you would like to be (up to three.... living or dead, real or fictional, it doesn't matter)?
None. Same as for female.
I would like to spend some time interacting and brainstorming with some [for me] "celebrities" in my field of interest but I couldn't find anyone real or fictional that I would like to be, rather than me. I am (sub) real.
Saturday, September 13, 2008
virtual impressions of the other one -short story
Aleksandar started to follow me at Twitter. I always check profile and recent page of tweets before I add someone, and this guy definitely drew my attention by different, provocative movie-line short tweets, sometimes philosophical thoughts, sometimes they are rebel imperatives.
Then we exchanged few messages, he is reading my blog and stalking me on Twitter, me - likes his art work, visual identity and concept of his art-creations (including his T-Shirts). We moved to Facebook and then to emailing, and ended on Skype (so far). From our written and oral communication I can say that Aleksandar is very witty, talented, full of ideas, very visually driven - you can also conclude this from his web site. He is very into ex-Yugoslavian art and culture scene, mentioning many times some Yu-nostalgia moments that I can vaguely recall from my childhood.
I can absorb him and understand his modus vivandi as entity because he was going through same 90's political turbulences as I did, as well as nomadic life and lot of travels: coincidence or not - he lives in DC and NYC and I used to live there as well. He maybe looks intimidated and feisty at the same time at the first glance, but I think in his true nature he is very professional and funny person who jokes about life in his own sarcastic way.
He believes in horoscopes and tarot, this part of esoterica is unknown to me. He seems to be very into tarot as another form of visual replicability of symbols into real life. Also, he has full admiration and fear of women, which I can also understand ::smile:: , to correct myself, fear of strong women, so many times I have to be cautious and not too feisty [he may not appear again till the end of this project ::grin:: ] , but i can feel that he is afraid somewhere (maybe) of my energy which can be overflowing.
We have common educational sequence in our work and lives: he used to be a teacher of interactive design, and I am instructor, trainer, lecturer since my mid 20's. This part I really liked: his curiosity to discover new things, his ability to use and transfer all available web applications and medium per se for art-works and installations. I really dig his art. One should know the background not only of his personality, but what is more important of the country we used to live in 80's and 90's that influenced on each of us in different ways.
I'm glad we met [thanks to his friend who referred me to him] via social networking sites and I hope to meet soon in analogue world.
Then we exchanged few messages, he is reading my blog and stalking me on Twitter, me - likes his art work, visual identity and concept of his art-creations (including his T-Shirts). We moved to Facebook and then to emailing, and ended on Skype (so far). From our written and oral communication I can say that Aleksandar is very witty, talented, full of ideas, very visually driven - you can also conclude this from his web site. He is very into ex-Yugoslavian art and culture scene, mentioning many times some Yu-nostalgia moments that I can vaguely recall from my childhood.
I can absorb him and understand his modus vivandi as entity because he was going through same 90's political turbulences as I did, as well as nomadic life and lot of travels: coincidence or not - he lives in DC and NYC and I used to live there as well. He maybe looks intimidated and feisty at the same time at the first glance, but I think in his true nature he is very professional and funny person who jokes about life in his own sarcastic way.
He believes in horoscopes and tarot, this part of esoterica is unknown to me. He seems to be very into tarot as another form of visual replicability of symbols into real life. Also, he has full admiration and fear of women, which I can also understand ::smile:: , to correct myself, fear of strong women, so many times I have to be cautious and not too feisty [he may not appear again till the end of this project ::grin:: ] , but i can feel that he is afraid somewhere (maybe) of my energy which can be overflowing.
We have common educational sequence in our work and lives: he used to be a teacher of interactive design, and I am instructor, trainer, lecturer since my mid 20's. This part I really liked: his curiosity to discover new things, his ability to use and transfer all available web applications and medium per se for art-works and installations. I really dig his art. One should know the background not only of his personality, but what is more important of the country we used to live in 80's and 90's that influenced on each of us in different ways.
I'm glad we met [thanks to his friend who referred me to him] via social networking sites and I hope to meet soon in analogue world.
my short story
A bit & bytes of facts:
I started to use computers at the end of primary school (glory days of Commodore) and I got very curious and interested. I was very good in COBOL and FORTRAN programming languages but I got even more enthusiastic with computers when I discovered Internet in 1995. Then, my former boyfriend who was total geek -math student, introduced me to Inter webs and computers of that generation. I remember sitting for hours behind (the black) screen chatting in LAN, and later using IRC and Usenet where we sent messages to each other. I was amazed with possibilities and spent many hours both in computer lab on Math Institute SANU (Serbian Academy of Science and Arts) as well as the computer lab at ETF (Faculty of Engineering and CS). Since my nature for studies was dual - humanities and computer science, I tried to balance and find some golden path between them.
I created my first web page at 1996. and was pioneer in many innovative things that didn't exist before in Serbia (former Yugoslavia). Throughout the School and after School I had wonderful practice in areas of information science and digital culture and society from professors and practitioners from abroad.
In late 90s I've pioneered the development of first listservs in academia (they had over 800 members and some of them were international). It was funny situation during that time when many people thought that behind that 'virtual' wall are several people working on this project, but when we met in real life they were shocked to see that there is a young girl who managed everything. In the early of 2000 I was the founder and editor in chief of the first electronic magazines (in visual arts, contemporary architecture and culture) , and blogger since 2002. I've changed many blogging platforms (from blogger, wired, livejournal and settled finally at wordpress).
Also, beside educational work and training the students, professionals on new web 1.0 applications (from web sites to online databases), I was the idea factory for many projects in education, science, culture. The first (and the only so far) institutional science blog in Serbia was created and managed by my enormous desire to expand the borders and challenge myself and others in innovations of Web 2.0. I think I did succeed.
I've changed lot of hardware, have worked on many of them, used many software as well, I am gadgets freak, and some people say I'm a geek gal. My parents know this the best and since they are in totally different professions I am deeply grateful for their patience with me. At certain point I agree about being geeky but I never go to extremes - I love my analogue private life, and when I'm not present online I have lot of other interesting people and things that occupy me. I keep my first and the oldest laptop (from 1998) as vintage and never throw away my hardware.
As speaking of virtual identity, I trying to balance my digital identity from both positions: as participant and observer/researcher. It is interesting how other people see me as virtual persona, actually as a real person with (her) activities in digital medium. It depends on person - colleagues know who i am (at least I hope they know < smile > ), and other people who read my words, follow me in my work, or just random people - have different perceptions of my ID/Entity which depends on self-presentations in different mediums and contexts.
I am known to twitter from the airplane when the software is crashed down, at the conferences, write or chat while I eat (bad habit), hack and fight with other supersmart people for some good cause but then there are times when I love to sit in the nature, beside the water, river, sea, ocean, practice yoga and meditate.
Recently, I took a Digital Native test (made byDN Initiative) and my score was 95%. The only question I failed was about the usage of TiVO.< grin >
Many people find hard to follow me, I can add that my current computer finds that the same as many times I type much faster than he can digest. Also, I find hard to find supersmart engineers in computer science, in professional and private life. But, I'm learning and trying to understand both parties. I'm learning a lot from much experienced web developers and designers, I like to hear each part and brainstorm with them as well as with professors from different Universities world wide, who inspire me, and vice versa.
Since, I'm involved in Information Technologies for more than 13 years, and in online communities (as participant and observer) for 10 years, my PhD research focus is on the later.
You can find me, if not working in front of my base station surrounded by a lot of creative and inspirational thingies that help to go through, or listening in the background while writing to my Last.fm, I am usually walking down the streets, taking photographs, chilling out in outdoors caffees, chilling, talking to people, hailing the cab, or making creative chaos. I never go without my mobile listening to my favorite music playlist and podcasts du jour. Have my own, unique mo's that I keep for myself and the closest ones.
I started to use computers at the end of primary school (glory days of Commodore) and I got very curious and interested. I was very good in COBOL and FORTRAN programming languages but I got even more enthusiastic with computers when I discovered Internet in 1995. Then, my former boyfriend who was total geek -math student, introduced me to Inter webs and computers of that generation. I remember sitting for hours behind (the black) screen chatting in LAN, and later using IRC and Usenet where we sent messages to each other. I was amazed with possibilities and spent many hours both in computer lab on Math Institute SANU (Serbian Academy of Science and Arts) as well as the computer lab at ETF (Faculty of Engineering and CS). Since my nature for studies was dual - humanities and computer science, I tried to balance and find some golden path between them.
I created my first web page at 1996. and was pioneer in many innovative things that didn't exist before in Serbia (former Yugoslavia). Throughout the School and after School I had wonderful practice in areas of information science and digital culture and society from professors and practitioners from abroad.
In late 90s I've pioneered the development of first listservs in academia (they had over 800 members and some of them were international). It was funny situation during that time when many people thought that behind that 'virtual' wall are several people working on this project, but when we met in real life they were shocked to see that there is a young girl who managed everything. In the early of 2000 I was the founder and editor in chief of the first electronic magazines (in visual arts, contemporary architecture and culture) , and blogger since 2002. I've changed many blogging platforms (from blogger, wired, livejournal and settled finally at wordpress).
Also, beside educational work and training the students, professionals on new web 1.0 applications (from web sites to online databases), I was the idea factory for many projects in education, science, culture. The first (and the only so far) institutional science blog in Serbia was created and managed by my enormous desire to expand the borders and challenge myself and others in innovations of Web 2.0. I think I did succeed.
I've changed lot of hardware, have worked on many of them, used many software as well, I am gadgets freak, and some people say I'm a geek gal. My parents know this the best and since they are in totally different professions I am deeply grateful for their patience with me. At certain point I agree about being geeky but I never go to extremes - I love my analogue private life, and when I'm not present online I have lot of other interesting people and things that occupy me. I keep my first and the oldest laptop (from 1998) as vintage and never throw away my hardware.
As speaking of virtual identity, I trying to balance my digital identity from both positions: as participant and observer/researcher. It is interesting how other people see me as virtual persona, actually as a real person with (her) activities in digital medium. It depends on person - colleagues know who i am (at least I hope they know < smile > ), and other people who read my words, follow me in my work, or just random people - have different perceptions of my ID/Entity which depends on self-presentations in different mediums and contexts.
I am known to twitter from the airplane when the software is crashed down, at the conferences, write or chat while I eat (bad habit), hack and fight with other supersmart people for some good cause but then there are times when I love to sit in the nature, beside the water, river, sea, ocean, practice yoga and meditate.
Recently, I took a Digital Native test (made byDN Initiative) and my score was 95%. The only question I failed was about the usage of TiVO.< grin >
Many people find hard to follow me, I can add that my current computer finds that the same as many times I type much faster than he can digest. Also, I find hard to find supersmart engineers in computer science, in professional and private life. But, I'm learning and trying to understand both parties. I'm learning a lot from much experienced web developers and designers, I like to hear each part and brainstorm with them as well as with professors from different Universities world wide, who inspire me, and vice versa.
Since, I'm involved in Information Technologies for more than 13 years, and in online communities (as participant and observer) for 10 years, my PhD research focus is on the later.
You can find me, if not working in front of my base station surrounded by a lot of creative and inspirational thingies that help to go through, or listening in the background while writing to my Last.fm, I am usually walking down the streets, taking photographs, chilling out in outdoors caffees, chilling, talking to people, hailing the cab, or making creative chaos. I never go without my mobile listening to my favorite music playlist and podcasts du jour. Have my own, unique mo's that I keep for myself and the closest ones.
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
Virtual ID/Entity
Before I reply to your post, a thought, a reflection that i'll develop
Further reading at Digital Serendipities, where I've been writing about representation in virtual world as well as digital management impression issues.
Further reading at Digital Serendipities, where I've been writing about representation in virtual world as well as digital management impression issues.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
A brief history of my own net identity
Ok, I started using the Internet in 96-97. At first it was just emails, chats and forums. No online communities as we know them today.
At fist I started using my high school nickname Moćko. It was given to me by a friend of mine who was referring to my, let's just say not very masculine body type. It was a kind of a meat pate too. During my college days it turned into an English version, Mighty. Being an artist I also wanted a cool art moniker, with a little touch of irony.
In gay circles I used Ambrrose, which is a hybrid between Marcel Duchamp's female alter ego, Rrose Selavy and a character from my favorite computer game Undying, Ambrose. It was a perfect hybrid: arty, pop, dandy (Oscar Wildish) macho but feminine... The game is made by Clive Barker, a famous horror writer known to be openly gay.
Rrose Selavy ............................Ambrose
As for the avatar I used an old photo of mine that my friend has taken in 1996. It is a take on M Duchamp's Rrose Selavy.
Ambrrose
Gay culture is known for the usage of nicknames. At fist it was to conceal your own identity, but it just got stuck as a habit. So, I was playing with this elusive gender identity for a while.
I even made and artwork about it "Danse Macabre" where I used totally constructed female identity to take part in Videomedeja (female video) exhibition in Novi Sad, just to prove a pont that a man can make a female video.
http://www.the-mighty.com/webart/fishnetart.htm
In my professional representation I used Mighty or The-Mighty (I still own and use www.the-mighty.com).
In 2005 I rejected all my virtual identities and introduced my self as me. Aleksandar Maćašev.
Although I use very polished-cool photos that a student of mine taken of me. Pale, overexposed... kinda pop/goth... it's actually a try to look young and without wrinkles. At the age of 34 you start to think about things like that.
photo: Tijana Bulatović
a drawn variation
Recently I started to play with my own name. Like a Russian version (my family came from Russia few centuries ago).
Александр Раикович Матяшев
Or in the United States where people have trouble pronouncing my family name Maćašev. It is always written Macasev, and people think that I'm Scotish.
Alexander MacAsev
At fist I started using my high school nickname Moćko. It was given to me by a friend of mine who was referring to my, let's just say not very masculine body type. It was a kind of a meat pate too. During my college days it turned into an English version, Mighty. Being an artist I also wanted a cool art moniker, with a little touch of irony.
In gay circles I used Ambrrose, which is a hybrid between Marcel Duchamp's female alter ego, Rrose Selavy and a character from my favorite computer game Undying, Ambrose. It was a perfect hybrid: arty, pop, dandy (Oscar Wildish) macho but feminine... The game is made by Clive Barker, a famous horror writer known to be openly gay.
Rrose Selavy ............................Ambrose
As for the avatar I used an old photo of mine that my friend has taken in 1996. It is a take on M Duchamp's Rrose Selavy.
Ambrrose
Gay culture is known for the usage of nicknames. At fist it was to conceal your own identity, but it just got stuck as a habit. So, I was playing with this elusive gender identity for a while.
I even made and artwork about it "Danse Macabre" where I used totally constructed female identity to take part in Videomedeja (female video) exhibition in Novi Sad, just to prove a pont that a man can make a female video.
http://www.the-mighty.com/webart/fishnetart.htm
In my professional representation I used Mighty or The-Mighty (I still own and use www.the-mighty.com).
In 2005 I rejected all my virtual identities and introduced my self as me. Aleksandar Maćašev.
Although I use very polished-cool photos that a student of mine taken of me. Pale, overexposed... kinda pop/goth... it's actually a try to look young and without wrinkles. At the age of 34 you start to think about things like that.
photo: Tijana Bulatović
a drawn variation
Recently I started to play with my own name. Like a Russian version (my family came from Russia few centuries ago).
Александр Раикович Матяшев
Or in the United States where people have trouble pronouncing my family name Maćašev. It is always written Macasev, and people think that I'm Scotish.
Alexander MacAsev
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